Spirit in the sky

Ok... with the inspiration of Julie and Julia I'm going to follow my one little one year goal. I recently received "The Secret - Daily Teachings," for a christmas present. Every day for a year theres a new lesson each day that is suppose to help you live your life in accordance with the natural laws of the Universe and in general just live it! So like Julie in Julie and Julia I'm going to blog about my thoughts of each days lesson, might not always be long but there should be a short blurb here everyday for the next year... now that's a scary thought!

Ok so todays lesson:
committing to writing 100 things I am grateful for as gratitude will shift my energy and allow good things to happen in my life. Man.... I feel like this is a tough one to start with! But here goes:

1. Lisa
2. Friends
3. Family
4. Jasper
5. My health
6. Education
7. Love
8. Shelter
9. Pictures
10. Memories
11. Books
12. Purses
13. Laptops
14. Internet
15. Cameras
16. blankets
17. electricity
18. alarm clocks
19. jobs
20. food
21. airports
22. water
23. mountains
24. oceans
25. hairdressers
26. chefs
27. transportation systems
28. cars
29. paved roads
30. paper and pens
31. clothing
32. accessories
33. language
34. communication skills
35. literacy
36. hard labour
37. mind labour
38. calendars
39. socks
40. music
41. movies
42. tv shows
43. makeup
44. medicine
45. doctors
46. dentists
47. engineers
48. leaders
49. pillows
50. soft sheets

This is much harder than I thought it would be.... only half way!

51. dancing
52. sand
53. snow
54. campfires
55. marshmallows
56. shopping
57. sex
58. dr. pepper (such a guilty pleasure)
59. cuddling
60. spas!
61. headbands
62. earrings
63. shoes
64. garbage men and garbage disposals
65. composting
66. neighbours
67. community
68. teachers
69. research and development
70. trees
71. magazines
72. fashion
73. drinking games
74. board games
75. card games
76. identities
77. individualism
78. book marks
79. highlighters
80. flashlights
81. tampons and pads
82. backcombs and hairspray
83. comradrieship
84. institutions
85. small towns
86. cities
87. razors
88. hand sanitizer
89. cook books!
90. travelling

only 10 more!

91. birthday cards
92. emails
93. lakes
94. decorating
95. yoga
96. swimming
97. soccer
98. holding hands
99. seadoos
100. sunshine

Holy! That took alot of effort.. clearly there isn't much order. Just what came to my mind at the time... it does help me think about the things that mean the most to me though. As well as the things that I depend on in order to live the lifestyle I live. It was an interesting activity. See you tomorrow for Wednesday's Daily Teaching!

Have you ever seen the rain?

It's a new year and with that new resolutions. It's not usually my thing to write up resolutions or even to think of any but for some reason I decided that I would. So here are a couple of my new years resolutions:

- don't wear as much makeup (this means I pretty much wear no makeup unless I'm going out or there's a special occasion)
- stop buying new bar shirts everytime I go somewhere
- stop buying new clothes in general
- drink more water (always so hard for me!)
- go for walks throughout the week

now lets just see if I succeed!

Bad Moon Rising

Clearly it has been much too long since I last posted. I deserve a slap on the wrist! I actually can't believe that it has been a whole two months. I guess that is depictive of the end of a semester with papers and exams and the heading home for the holidays. My holidays were fanatastic. And while their duration was a month it felt merely like two weeks had passed. And now I'm back at school. It's crazy to think that this is my final semester of my undergraduate year. My oh my does time fly. Over the holidays I had an excellent time on my trip to Mexico with my family. I was really excited to be in the country since I had never been but have studied it for so long. Like all resort vacations I didn't really have much time to see what the country was like but what I did see, just highlighted my previous held notion that there is much separation in Mexico between the rich and poor. While I was there we managed to see the Mayan ruins which was honestly so spectacular. I just couldn't believe what I was seeing for the most part. The other highlight of my trip was snorkelling along a coral reef and seeing a sea turtle. It was soo cool! I love sea turtles! Mexico also helped me discover my love for CCR.. such a good band, and honestly my recommended tunes for a road trip!

My love for you;

Fills the deepest valley,
Seeps into the expanse of the ocean,
Drifts over the highest mountains,
My love for you is everything,
It is everywhere.

I was just down the street.

the trouble with..

I'm sick of this facade, I am not who you want me to be. Is that so hard to understand? Please wrap your mind around it because I will not change just because it pisses you off. This has not changed me. I have been trying to escape for such a long time, only to be dragged back in. But I've begun to realize that we do not share any similar interests and sometimes when I'm around you I have nothing to say. You are exactly the same person, but I have grown. This is no longer good enough for me anymore. I'm sure we will remain semi the same from a distance. And to be honest that is fine with me. I have begun to claim my independence, to make my stance, and you'll be left here. I think we will both be satisified.

take it easy..

I am lost and have not been found. I am here and yet you will not stare. I will leave and I suppose we will see. All I can feel inside is a void. And in the next moment everything begins to tear up into shreds and I begin to wither. From the inside out, all I want to do is shout. But my throat closes and everything begins to melt. Like hot liquid, it runs right down. I can feel it burn and everything turns. I close my eyes and hear nothing but lies. And yet it will not let me die. My lips form a shape but not one whisper will escape. My hands reach out but I can't feel anything about. And my heart gives a start. What will keep us apart?

ceiling star..

I will kiss your lips
and hold your hand
every single time
we step outside.

I will tell you
how beautiful you are
incomparable to the
brightest star.

I will lie by your side
and listen to
the rise and tide
of all that is inside.

I will forever watch
as the sun dances
and rain plays
all over your skin.

I will never forget
when I look into your eyes
and see all those times
we loved and sighed.